In lieu of searching for happiness in my own life I have decided to write this blog to clear my head, write down thoughts and talk through inner conflicts. With that said I am in search of my definition of happiness, and I say my own definition because I believe that life's ups and downs form our own beliefs about what makes us happy as individuals. So, in search of my own happiness I have found that happiness is not clearly defined in my life, I can honestly say I have no idea what makes me happy. I think I know what I want out of life based on what I have observed over the years but to be honest I don't think I have ever been happy. Looking back at my life thus far, I almost feel as if I have been living my life on hopes that making someone else happy will in turn make me happy. I have always lived through other people's expectations and hopes for myself and have never actually had to make myself happy by myself. To be quite honest I am completely lost within myself. Mo...